I’m a gratitude junky. Just take a look at my Facebook timeline or spend a day with me. I’m always giving thanks for my many blessings.
And—in the same moment, I’m feeling like there’s never enough time to get everything done.
As I’ve grown accustomed to my teaching schedule and created routines based on The Hive’s calendar, a new habit has taken root. When I wake up, my first thought goes to how long I have during my afternoon break. Then I move on to what time I start teaching my evening session. Then on to how little time I have to get anything done.
You want to talk scarcity—I know how efficient I am when it’s time to get stuff done. I know how much I can accomplish in a short amount of time. On Mondays, I have 6 hours between classes. 6 HOURS!!! What the hell? How is that not enough time? And why I am selling myself short, afraid that I won’t get enough done?
I LOVE teaching and think it would be healthier if my first thoughts reminded me of how lucky I am to walk to work (which takes a total of fifty-two seconds) and walk to work that I LOVE, work that feeds my soul!
Anyway, she’s a writer and researcher and teacher and mom and SMART. She’s done tons of real life research on shame and vulnerability. Her book, Daring Greatly (we’re doing a Sunday workshop series at The Hive this fall based on her book) has an entire chapter devoted to scarcity thinking.
Check this out:
“For me, and for many of us, our first waking thought of the day is “ I didn’t get enough sleep.” The next one might be “I don’t have enough time.” Whether true or not, that thought of not enough occurs to us automatically before we even think to question or examine it…Before we even sit up in bed, before our feet touch the floor, we’re already lacking something. And by the time we go to bed at night, our minds are raining with a litany of what we didn’t get, or didn’t get done, that day.”
-Lynne Twist from The Soul of Money (quoted by Brene Brown in Daring Greatly)
Hmmm, how many other ways do I perpetuate this undercurrent of not enough in my psyche? Time to get curious. Curious without beating myself up about all the times I fall into scarcity thinking. It’s starting to appear that it happens more than I thought.
Yay! I’m catching it! Rather than berating myself over this not-helpful habit, I’m going to try and find some gratitude for my own inner wisdom—the part of me that sees there might be another way. It’s not always easy, but it sure feels better than the anxiety triggered when I feel behind or lacking.
Back in January I started to write in a gratitude journal first thing in the morning to help me start the day with a full heart. I think I am going to pick up that practice again.
In the meantime, I’m going to include 3 things for which I’m grateful for right now:
1. I took the time to write this blog. ☺
2. I danced to some great music Sunday night.
3. I had the most amazing piece of spicy chocolate.
How ‘bout you? Do you catch yourself falling into the scarcity trap? How do you get yourself out once you’re triggered? For what are you grateful?